I just came back from walking Seiko. Decided to take a new route today and walked to my primary school which I haven't been back for years. Irony though, because the school is considered quite near from my place.
So much memories! As I entered the area that I used to hang out with my friends, bits and pieces of memories resurfaced. Some things stayed the same, others changed. I don't remember what are the exact changes but the place that was once so familiar to me is now as good as foreign land, haha. But I'm glad to have chosen to walk there today because it opened up a new area for me to walk Seiko. Planning to explore with her even more places around my area too.
I have to admit I haven't walked Seiko much (at all, actually :x) because it was pretty much too hazy. Okay, partially I gave myself the haze excuse and most of it was due to my laziness lol. I'm sorry Seiko baby!! I will try my best to walk you every day/night!! I wanna go exploring new places, and see how far we can go together.
Anyway, being back at my primary school made me envy primary school students. I'm not sure about now, but back then our workload wasn't heavy at all. I don't even remember studying my ass off for PSLE. I was at Kheng Cheng Primary for 4 years before I switched to Eunos Primary because I had to move house. The last 2 years of my primary life was okay, and then not so okay.
All along my studies weren't excellent; just passable, and expectedly I went into the last class of the EM2 stream. If I remembered correctly it's like EM1 is the best, EM2 is mediocre and EM3 is the least ideal (no offence). I'm not sure if the things we studied in EM1 and 2 differed from EM3, but I know that EM1 are full of the aces lol.
My P5 life went by in a flash, so I don't recall much except that I really liked my form teacher. Somehow after the end of year exams I did well enough that she pushed me into the EM1 stream. I was glad that I achieved something, but what I didn't expect was how I would be treated.
I felt like the EM1 class' (we only had one EM1 class) form teacher didn't liked me, and that she kinda looked down on me. Whether for the fact that I came from the last EM2 class or otherwise I still do not know. I also felt that some of my classmates looked down on me too. I was ostracized initially, and I don't know why I was so thick-skinned when I was 12 to try and fit in everyday lol.
I would initiate chats with classmates around me, I would try my best to make friends, I basically tried to please anyone who ever bothered with me in the class.
I was even bullied, and I did not even realized it until I thought back about my primary school life years later.
The worst case was when I had my favourite Winnie the Pooh pencil case super-glued. Someone or some people were real evil, one fine day it was just decided that my pencil case zip will be super-glued together. When I happily came back from recess and tried to get a stationery, I realized what happened. Along the entire zip line was dry hard super glue.
IT DID NOT HELP WHEN THAT WAS MY FREAKING FAVOURITE.
I reported to my form teacher and cried so badly, and you'd think she would've helped me.
SURPRISE, SHE DID NOT. Somehow she just felt like this was no big deal because I was just a nobody in the class. I was the new girl who she deemed unfit to join the EM1 class full of aces.
Thinking back about this incident still made my blood boil. I can't believe how I was treated, and it's even more unbelievable how quickly I got over the issue and tried to please them again. Honestly if I could go back now as the current me, I would've slapped the 12 year old me. How could I be so dumb? I should have complained all the way to MOE and get that teacher sacked.
Does she know how her ignorance to the bullying issue made a huge impact on a P6 girl?? NO. I would hurl all my known vulgarity vocabulary at her now but I shall stay civilized.
I remember it now, I'll remember it for life. If I ever unfortunately bump into her, I don't think I'd give two hoots about her. Oh wait, I'm probably too much of a nobody that she doesn't even remember me! Well karma works in a circle so.
Right..... Point is life was so much simpler when I was 12 and less hateful/vengeful.
I love my life right now though. Wouldn't give anything to turn back time because I have the cutest baby in the world with me now!
Random photo of my cutest Seiko baby's tummy. I love to pat her belly, IT'S EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY SO SATISFYING.
P/S: To whoever those bullies was, I forgive you because I'm probably living a happier life than you are right now.
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